Childhood FEAR

                   Everyone of us are tied to a fear that some of us are still living with it, or might have already banish it long ago. Our long lasting fear may have mainly grew as we nurture to an adolescence. It is just a part of our live that we must learn to live with it, or else put our best foot forward to overcome this long haunted nightmare of ours.

                    So this question has been marked around our mind for years saying like why does that itsy binie little spider is still the trigger of my panic mode? Or why am I still afraid of the dark? Well no expert on phobia treatment have discovered any perfect recipe that cure fears yet, but even so there are few ways some patient managed to reduce their fears not to 100 per cent fear free, but at least one that won't make your fear scare to daylight out of you. As for my case, it would be supernatural that is the one that had been bugging ever since I watch "The Seed Of Chucky" over my cousin place. The combination of scared faced playdoll plus a twisted and not to mention the wicked soul trapped inside that plastic toy is no child play for me, of course your might be thinking, how bad could it be, but trust me it wouldn't be the same if you are watching it 3A.M. with only just a pillow to save yourself from the screams of the horror.

                     Done with my 1st fear, now onto the 2nd, which is the extinct of music. Nope, your eyes aren't playing a trick on you, I just can't imagine myself to live in this world without the existance of tunes. Generally, any music syncronise well with my ears, whether it is old school or techno, I am bound to get myself stuck with it the whole day. I realised this fear long when I was around the age of 9. It was when one day where I had to leave my cd player (and no, mp3 had a price of a bomb) at home while staying over at my uncle's, who somehow never gets the jizz on rhythmic tunes. So that day, I was without tv, toys and most importantly beautiful music. Therefore it bring big impact to my mood, the way I interact, and the way I act (mother said I it was raining everywhere I went). No doubt, my dad knew the only way to cure these abnormal behaviour of mine is to pump me up with melodies. It still until today where I have to listen a single song very badly like how cocaine are to drug addict to live "normally". Not to say I do drugs before, but the addiction had surpassed the way how geeks worship to their video games.

                          To me, fears are just something we just have to learn to live with no matter who we are. As to those who think they have no fear but only things they hate, Mahmat Gandhi's quote these hates as "The enemy is fear. We think it is hate, but is fear". My advice, don't be afraid to confront your fears, rather be afraid to live under the shadow of those fear.

Discrimination

Discrimination is the prejudicial treatment of an individual based on his or her membership - or perceived membership - in a certain group or category. It involves the group's initial reaction or interaction, influencing the individual's actual behavior towards the group or the group leader, restricting members of one group from opportunities that are available to a group, leading to the exclusion of the individual or entities based on logical or irrational decisionmaking.

Discriminatory laws such as redlining exist in many countries. In some places, controversial attempts such as racial quotas have been used to redress negative effects of discrimination -- but have sometimes been called reverse discrimination themselves.

Drama Week

The tittle tells you everything, yes my class has another big mission to accomplish - inter-class drama competition. Drama king and queen have been waiting this very day to outshine the rest and show that they could as well be a Hollywood material. What part do I play you say, well should we say as morale support, yup morale support, you have the hero and sidekicks, so its like giving support to the heroes on stage. But what is more important here is that not who play what role and whose the better acter, the big picture here is that the moment when our class step into the hall, we already looked like winners, I think is most likely that its because that our class have a high chemistry that made us look like when we are serious about something, we really meant it, and we will work as a team to push ourselves above the limit, making us having some kind of a mysterious bond that glue everyone. I never regretted having my 2 years in Belian, and I was lucky to be with the pupil in Belian that never slows down the momentum of being the best.

3rd Entry - Feb

What can I say? Another week of schooldays just passed by with a blink of an eye, come to think of it, it felt like school just reopen yesterday. Well the saying that time waits for no one really starts to make me wonder am I actually going to cope with my studies with not much time left for me to slack around (which usually what I do) or to fool around anymore. But trying to turn to a new leaf is always easier said than done because most of the time I will only be motivated with a burst of energy that will be enough to only last for a while, then I gain confidence that I will accomplish anything that I wanted, with this I get overexcited with all wonders I could have done but instead just wasting my time on dreaming about it and not taking any action. Funny eh? I wonder, whether if I were the only one facing this dilemma.

February - Its fun to laugh out loud!

Great to see what has been installed for me this February, starting to get a hang on my daily school work but still might need some improvement. Though one thing sure had made my life even more colourful to brighten my school day routine, that is there is never a thing called ‘too much of laughter’. Yeah you heard me, laughter. Laughter has always the best medicine I knew to keep myself motivated in life. One of the best laughter I had from this month was when I went to overnight at a best friend of mine and watched a live comedy performed buy a Mexican American named Gabriel Iglesias on tv. I have to say, that guy was born with a mind of a comedian. He was special in a sense that most of the comedian would only say jokes to keep people happy but he would be changing his voice from one to another to make his jokes flow together with the atmosphere of his crowd. Even though laughter was the best to cure a boring day, we still have to keep our heads focus on the big picture, that is our upcoming major examination – SPM, but its never wrong to have some great laughter with your friends to end the last year of high school not only with great academic achievement , but also the memories of beautiful friendship.

January - Resolution: Make but won't BREAK!

Things started a little bumpy this month as it always have been since I have been going on my own pace during the holiday. When school started, life was like a strong riverbank overflowing my own personal time, things like homework and school curriculum to attend was flooding my time, filling every single one of it which of course made me hesitated for a time. But then again, something told me this year was no more a walk in park as how the previous years were, it told me to buckle up and made sure I get every single juice out of myself. I think that most of that came from our school teacher where they gave us more and more homework like there were more of that to come. But of course, that also gave me a sign that says ‘you better get down to your books before your grade goes down to you’. Well, I sure didn’t want to be the jester to be fooling around with my grades this year, instead I think this is a great opportunity to put a great ending to end my high school studies. I know, this isn’t going to be easy if I was just going to act like I am some sort of Einstein in the class and continue my school days like it was just another vacation to a paradise. To everyone who are doing their SPM this year, push yourself above your limit, study well to pursue any career and dreams you have wished but had not been a reality, for this might be your only shot you have left loaded. To 5 Belian, we are always mighty.