Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Childhood FEAR

                   Everyone of us are tied to a fear that some of us are still living with it, or might have already banish it long ago. Our long lasting fear may have mainly grew as we nurture to an adolescence. It is just a part of our live that we must learn to live with it, or else put our best foot forward to overcome this long haunted nightmare of ours.

                    So this question has been marked around our mind for years saying like why does that itsy binie little spider is still the trigger of my panic mode? Or why am I still afraid of the dark? Well no expert on phobia treatment have discovered any perfect recipe that cure fears yet, but even so there are few ways some patient managed to reduce their fears not to 100 per cent fear free, but at least one that won't make your fear scare to daylight out of you. As for my case, it would be supernatural that is the one that had been bugging ever since I watch "The Seed Of Chucky" over my cousin place. The combination of scared faced playdoll plus a twisted and not to mention the wicked soul trapped inside that plastic toy is no child play for me, of course your might be thinking, how bad could it be, but trust me it wouldn't be the same if you are watching it 3A.M. with only just a pillow to save yourself from the screams of the horror.

                     Done with my 1st fear, now onto the 2nd, which is the extinct of music. Nope, your eyes aren't playing a trick on you, I just can't imagine myself to live in this world without the existance of tunes. Generally, any music syncronise well with my ears, whether it is old school or techno, I am bound to get myself stuck with it the whole day. I realised this fear long when I was around the age of 9. It was when one day where I had to leave my cd player (and no, mp3 had a price of a bomb) at home while staying over at my uncle's, who somehow never gets the jizz on rhythmic tunes. So that day, I was without tv, toys and most importantly beautiful music. Therefore it bring big impact to my mood, the way I interact, and the way I act (mother said I it was raining everywhere I went). No doubt, my dad knew the only way to cure these abnormal behaviour of mine is to pump me up with melodies. It still until today where I have to listen a single song very badly like how cocaine are to drug addict to live "normally". Not to say I do drugs before, but the addiction had surpassed the way how geeks worship to their video games.

                          To me, fears are just something we just have to learn to live with no matter who we are. As to those who think they have no fear but only things they hate, Mahmat Gandhi's quote these hates as "The enemy is fear. We think it is hate, but is fear". My advice, don't be afraid to confront your fears, rather be afraid to live under the shadow of those fear.